Changing Direction

This book project began because I knew I was done with trying to control my spending and eating

with magazine methods that promised huge results in 5 days. I should not be surprised that God's plans and mine were different. I feel like God allowed me to start this project knowing that He was going to take it as an opportunity to show me what I had been missing  while I was busy blending shakes for breakfast. All my efforts at change up until then had been aimed at actions; I ate to much, talked to much, spent to much, interrupted people to much. My goals were to learn to listen, control impulse eating and spending and the urge to speak. There will always be something to change. Now as I sit and work on the book I realize I am no longer just writing about changes to my behavior, I am sharing the journey of a relationship. It's more than choices, it's trust. Have I ever really trusted that He knows what I need? It's more than goals, It's perspective. If I am His and He is mine and If I really am eternal, than everything changes. Short term weight loss and impulse buys lose their appeal, being judged by others holds very little weight. The voice that I listen for above the noise is the one I trust for the truth. His voice calms the fears that drive the habits, reassures the insecurities that needed the approval of others. Hearing His voice whisper in my ear to listen and not speak becomes the habit instead of interrupting. When others see my faults that's alright, I don't need to hide, humility reminds me that the journey's not over. I still have to make choices and  learning to walk with the Spirit of God, but it's more than that. Its an adventure that we share as we Journey home.