The Space Inside My Head

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We all live inside our heads. Inside our heads we hold entire conversation; try to decide what others
are thinking about us, rerun old conversations thinking about what we should have said, plan our futures, watch people around us and place them in our labeled people buckets; we can go from elation to depression in minutes based on the places our mind wanders, our minds our deep and if allowed will wander where our emotions lead, we talk to God, talk to ourselves, talk to others,  fall in love, and become rock stars; all inside our heads.
What happens  however,  when you no longer trust the person inside your head. What do you do if this person you have become is someone who has betrayed you on multiple occasions; sabotaged your success, spent your money, built up debt, hurt the people you love, and caused you to become someone you don't want to be? How do you keep the place in your head from becoming someplace you don't want to be. A place where you feel judged, accused and worthless. A place where negativity is the norm, arguments over calories, credit cards, careers, and relationships wont stop. You hear yourself make promise after promise, knowing they will never be kept, you never keep your promises, they are empty. You want to trust, to love, to believe, but you have been let down one to many times.
How do you turn the relationship around? How do you trust yourself again?
Its time to invite a new voice into the conversation. It's time to silence the madness and let the quiet be. It's time to wait and let the quiet voice of grace begin to be heard, to saturate, and bring you back to less frantic pace where you first heard it. This is the place where you don't place yourself or others in buckets based on a system designed by someone who wants to hurt you. This is a place where you can rest and listen to the voice of acceptance and hope; hope that this is not the end. The voice of your creator reminding you that; your goals is not to fit in, get thin or race the bank. Your goal is to learn to live in this love and  let it saturate you so completely that it effects the world around you. It's time to listen and learn so that when the lies attempt to take the space back you stop them in their tracks and shout the truth. I am loved, I am forgiven, I am free, and you don't have a place inside my head. This place is forever taken.