Habits/Shame Loops. Lather, Rinse, Repeat

Lather, Rinse, Repeat

A good week is a week where I choose what I know is right.  I know what I need to do, and I do it. I am strong, determined, and self controlled. I get to the end of the week, my weight is down and I have money left over in my spending bucket.

That is a great feeling!!

Then, since I have had such a great week, I feel the need to celebrate. The ensuing celebration then proceeds to negate all the progress made the week before, and maybe add a little damage just for good measure.

Fun is followed by shame. 

I lay awake beating myself up.  

I wake up on Monday and do it all again; lather, rinse, repeat.
In this journey to learn to make choices, renew the way I think, and live in step with the freedom God intended  for me, I have run across a few stumbling blocks, namely; happiness, anxiety, sadness, anger, loneliness, exhaustion and boredom. All of these emotions, and maybe a few I missed, are  the excuses I use to  let impulse habits run my life. Where do I go from here? 

Choices are not impulses, and Emotions are not good advice.

Emotions matter, but they do not tell the truth. The truth sets us free from the bondage of impulsive living. We must stop, think and make a choice. 

Now that I know temptation will be waiting right behind emotional highs and lows, I can anticipate his next move; before I find myself on another sleepless Sunday night wondering  "what just happened?"