The Difference Journal Day 3; Warning Warning

The last two weeks have been tough. It's like I put myself on  replay from 5 years ago. I couldn't see anything crazy that had happened to trigger this strange relapse, it just seemed to show up out of no-where. After two weeks of this out of control behavior, I finally seemed to come out of the stupor, shake my head and realize what was happening.
As I got to thinking and praying about it, I was able to see what might have happened. A few months back I had taken on several new challenges in my life. At first they all seemed fine. These are things am passionate about, however they require more time and effort.

 

I had grown tired as the weeks went by and old habits jumped on the opportunity as soon as my guard was down.

It didn't happen all at once, it was  slow progression of allowances. My routine was changed and I wasn't finding time to spend with God, so I was making choices on my own. I had also stopped exercising, so my emotions were down as well.

I needed to hit reset

On the good side, this is the first time in three years that I haven't freaked out and started a new diet, or bought ten new books on debt reduction. It may seem like a relapse at first glance, but it's actually a cause of celebration. God is making changes from the inside out. I'm not starting over, I'm affirming what I know; I can't do this alone.

Hope