I spend a lot of days arguing with myself. Changing patterns in my thinking is difficult as I don't trust my own thinking in general. I know that my goal is not to focus on weight loss or saving money, thus making food and money the focus. I know that my goal is to focus on making one choice at a time as I walk with the Holy Spirit and learn to focus on each choice, not how I look or how much I have in the bank. In the end if I am making right choices one at a time, the weight, debt, words, relationships, and tasks will fall into place. HOWEVER: I find myself numerous times throughout the day comparing my body to others, making purchases I don't need, counting calories, worrying about things I can't control and saying thing without thinking. Those old tapes that having been running in my head for years on end just won't die. If I continue to listen to them I know without question I will end up right where they got me before; Exhausted, defeated and feeling shamed.
I wonder sometimes how long it will take before the new tapes become the norm and I am happy to live without comparison, judgment or worry about what others think, in me and who God made me to be, once choice at a time.
Onward!
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