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It's not you; It's me
Healthy relationships encourage people to be the best versions of themselves. They don't try to force you to fill their every perceived need, they don't control you, badger you, call you every second to see where you are, or tempt you to do things that they know are bad for you. LLove does what is best for you, even at it's own expense.
Based on this definition, I need to break up with Food.
Food and I have been codependent for way to long.
Food calls me, from wherever he is, asking me to find him and spend time with him.
When I am hanging out with friends, he wants all of my attention. I can't even hear the people talking to me because he is calling my name.
We break up 3 times a month and then get back together again. He gets jealous when I try to live without him and calls me 6 times a day, even when I am working.
The problem is every time I break up with him, he's all I think about.
When I am with him he makes me feel so happy, but afterwards I always feel miserable about our time
together.
I tried going out with his friend "diet" a few times, but it was worse. He just wanted to keep my all to himself and would never let me hang out with any of my old friends. Everyone else was off limits.
If I am every going know the freedom God intended for me I am going to have to walk away and grieve the loss of this lifelong relationship. I know I will want to go back, I know I will feel the loss for a long time. It will hit me most when I am lonely and bored, or at 2AM when I can't sleep, but I am ready to be free. I am ready to give my attention to things that matter. I am ready to think about someone else.
together.
I tried going out with his friend "diet" a few times, but it was worse. He just wanted to keep my all to himself and would never let me hang out with any of my old friends. Everyone else was off limits.
If I am every going know the freedom God intended for me I am going to have to walk away and grieve the loss of this lifelong relationship. I know I will want to go back, I know I will feel the loss for a long time. It will hit me most when I am lonely and bored, or at 2AM when I can't sleep, but I am ready to be free. I am ready to give my attention to things that matter. I am ready to think about someone else.
I'll make sure he knows, it's not you, it's me. We can still be friends.
There is someone else, if I am being honest. I have found a love that does not leave me feeling shame, and has sacrificed everything to be with me.
Hebrews 13:5b
Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you
never will I forsake you
Hope Wirta